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"To me it seems that to give happiness is a far nobler goal that to attain it: and that what we exist for is much more a matter of relations to others than a matter of individual progress: much more a matter of helping others to heaven than of getting there ourselves."
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Up in the valley, came then upon the waters.

Friday, December 18, 2009


To conquer your adversaries, you must first conquer yourself...
The state of the world depends on all it's users
The abuse of life is the most deadly thing.
So to solve the problems of earth, first there must be a revolution.
The mind is a strong place, that's where all things first arise.
So when a thought it produced, only expect it to be strong.

For the time will come when a strong thought is needed...
when a strong thought is needed, to proclaim victory over the laws..
to proclaim victory over the laws, of entropy, and death, and the end.
This strong thought its hope, and peace, and love...


Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Sunday, December 13, 2009

Nothing Better

"I'm not sure why I have suddenly decided to bring this up; but I think it's just the feeling of unsureness. After that day, when I confessed, I was thinking about nothing else except for the message you sent me right after. Indeed, it brought me flying up so high; even to Neptune perhaps. But then I started to think; where do we go from here? Am I really clear about what I feel? Are you really clear about what you feel? Were your feelings affected by my words to you? Were they, Benji?

But then I thought; if I am to feel something; does it really matter what the other person thinks. I may not even feel like this again; so now I'm feeling it but why am I cautious. Why can't I just go ahead and say that really, I am in love with you.

Then I have decided to come into a conclusion that; eventhough you're so far away; eventhough we can't talk to each other everyday and eventhough the computer hangs during crucial moments; I have decided to give you my heart."

Sunday, December 06, 2009

Love IV

I once said these things..and how can I ever forget them!?!?
but it does happen...though we must never stop trying!
and let us do this, for the sake of humanity

"Life is about beating time and space and fate for the chance of love."
"The willing spirit of love is the best thing in the world."

Everything in this world, it follows the laws of physics...
But we don't have to succumb to entropy!
We can life free! And our happiness doesn't need to come from temporary things.
Instead of accumulating this great illusion of wealth, you can be truly wealthy.
and your soul will be satisfied if you could just love...

And people! I'm not talking just about man and women.
Its child and parent! Brother and sister! Neighbors, co-workers.
If someone needs help, help them!
If someone needs attention, give it!
Some people you can't just change by ignoring them,
all your doing is hurting us.
So come together already...
And forget about your past sins, both those you've committed and those that have been committed against you...

And in these cold winter months...give some of those around you some love.
Do it for them because they need it,
do it for you, because you do as well.
And do it for me, because love is the most inspiring and fulfilling thing in this cold world.
Guaranteed, or your money back.

Saturday, November 28, 2009

Love III

Last night, I was forced to think.
Forced to think about the situations surrounding my life.
Forced to think about myself and what I produce in life.
Well what did I come up with?

I came up with something we all know.
Energy cannot be created, neither can it be destroyed.
Not by human hands.

Love, in order to give, it is necessary to have.

These people in this world, you and I.
Well, mostly you, this world has shaped you,

and tossed you around, and gave you false beliefs,
and robbed you of your loving capabilities.

But love to me, it comes natural.

And forgiveness spews out of me like light from the sun.
And kindness keeps me alive.
And my self confidence, well its my conceited self.
But I don't look down on you my friend.
Is it your fault that you cannot love like myself?

So who am I exalting myself over others.
"What a prideful bastard he is, saying these things"
Well, you may be right, but my pride won't allow me,
allow me to be anything less than loving.
And that is the beauty of a lover.

Saturday, November 21, 2009

Life is a Gamble

The more disappointment we experience,
the more chance of an overtaking hope.
The more we hate,
oh how greater the love when it comes.
But oh fear,
death is in the air,
what if your courage comes too late?

Well then you've lost in this game of life.
And you're character will be removed and forgotten.

Don't let this sad fate occur to us.
The world needs brave souls, in love and hope and peace.
And let it reject opposing greatnesses.

Lets join, to show the rest
It can happen, it will happen.
Trust me.

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

An old check

Thank you government, for helping me help others.

Tuesday, November 03, 2009

Society of Love II

This is what happens when I think.

If you can read it, have a good time trying to comprehend it.
notice my hand and arm at the bottom, it reads


We should all be lovers,
for the sake of humanity.

Saturday, October 31, 2009

Love II

A Casual Conversation

"I felt as you do about love. I realize the power of love is the strongest emotion. Stronger than that of hate, and nothingness. However, lose is a desire Rafe. A yearning to be feel accepted between people and accept one another for who the other is. The loss of this person causes you pain. It can cause horrid and cruel pain my dear friend. Love breeds revenge in some. That revenge will breed hate. Hate will breed suffering. Love will have its place in the helping of certain aspects yet please don't deny it can cause pain."


"Love? You don't agree with me regarding love! Love is not acceptance, or revenge. It doesn't cause revenge. Fear and pride may come in situations where love is also, but they don't work together and they aren't the same thing and they don't cause each other. Love is more than emotion, its a way of life, its a mindset, a valuing of human life that is above all the other human systems of communication and thought. And love should be for everyone, it shouldn't just be focused on one person, because, like in your case, that love may be covered in human mistakes. It is true that bad cannot simply cease to exist but this world is crap! It can become much, much better and the way that it will do so is through love."

Tuesday, October 27, 2009


Why is it that you hate so?
Why do your judgments and your failed expectations dictate your actions?

Control your emotions and see what is more important.
Those around you are more important than what you think is right.
What would your life be without your brothers and sisters?

So don't hate with divisions and fears and superficialities.
But remember that everyone around you is just like you.
and remember that their different, but remember only with a certain love.
They make this world that much more interesting.

Respect different perspectives and cultures and advantages and disabilities
and your life will be that much more rewarding.

Sunday, October 11, 2009

Society of Love

Call me crazy. but I believe that no person should have to suffer.
And if any person shall suffer, let it be regarding his own choice.

Ignorance turns this world into a miserable place,
but we can resolve to love.

We should come together,
divisions kill and alienate.

No matter what the world says,
The Society of Love will take you in,
and show you the way to live.

No matter the general consensus,
those with the arcane knowledge of a life lived in love,
will be the ones to change the world for the better.

The Society of Love
is one to be reached for
For the Sake of Humanity
philosopher king

Monday, October 05, 2009

the Bad Side of Life

Usually I tend to stay on the good side of life.
Usually optimistic, nice and healthy,
and even when life should be somewhat bad,
I'm still pretty good.but...
these past few days have shown me how human I am.

It's been a little more than two days since I've been sick.
It wasn't that bad at first and it seems that I'm not too far from recovery now,
but today has been the worst.
I don't want to eat...but I love eating!
I woke up today with a bad taste in my mouth.
I tried brushing my teeth and it didn't work.
Its like I can only taste bitterness.
Hopefully this symptom presides soon, its been the worst one.

In the end, today I was on the bad side of life.
Maybe its my optimism that keeps my idealism.
I seemed to lose it today though, just as my health.

Saturday, September 26, 2009


Love is the epiphany of human nature.
It connects and completes every man, woman and child.
Love itself should be embraced and not rejected.
If you want a savior, look into your heart and realize your true desires.
Love is pain's rival.

Give up your heart's prides and conceitions.
Let go of all that which rejects the people around you.
Never be content with the amount of love you give,
and you will realize the amount of love you get has increased.
Be conductable to love, or you'll turn to stone.

Tuesday, September 15, 2009


World peace is possible.
Why do you say it is not?

Surely, the reason that world peace is non-existent,
is indeed because of the fact that you say it is not possible.

Then after you voice this well-believed lie,
you're actions follow as you lie in a pool of your own acquiescence.

We are the problem of this world, but we are also the solution.
Stop believing you're powerless and join the revolution of peace.

Sunday, September 06, 2009


So I'm alive.
But I drown myself in an ocean of ideals.

I know reality well.
But my dreams I know even better.

I'm stuck in the way things are.
But maybe my freedom is the first step to the world's.

Saturday, August 29, 2009


There are periods in one blogger's life where they don't want to blog.
I may be going through a similar period.
I think I've said a whole lot already.
So, as this is my 77th post I will tell you to read some of my past posts.

I'm not even gonna suggest one.
Just find an interesting one and win it over.
Or don't, it doesn't matter to me.
Good day to you.

Sunday, August 23, 2009


"To me it seems that to give happiness is a far nobler goal that to attain it: and that what we exist for is much more a matter of relations to others than a matter of individual progress: much more a matter of helping others to heaven than of getting there ourselves."-Lewis Carroll 

Everyone in the world living selflessly.
We wouldn't have to worry about whether people had enough to eat,
or whether they had a good place to sleep.
We wouldn't fight over issues with health care,
and we wouldn't be fighting wars.
You'd be taking care of the others around you,
and the others around you would be taking care of you.
Why do we fear this kind of life?
What is so distasteful about peace?
People are so blind, so ignorant.
They're so stuck in what they already know.
You must discover love!
You must discover what is right!
I'm wrong, you're wrong, we'll all wrong starting now.
Figure it out, the truth, what do you see?
Death gives no satisfaction
Because how can you enjoy anything without life?
Satisfaction should be found in the eternal.
Our humanities should not depend on money or possession,
but we should invest in each other.
Humanity should be the controller of its destiny,
rather than the victim of its fate.
Work with me people.
Despite what I've heard,
it takes more than one boy's ambition to change the entire world.

Saturday, August 15, 2009

So I was thinking...

I saw the mistakes of society and thought it was the governments fault.

Well, I believe I was wrong.
The world's condition can't be blamed on a few individuals.
The world's condition is solely dependent on all of humanity.
We all contribute to the world's state

Now that fact stumps me.
If the world's state depends on everyone,
well then how do we go about changing the world?
How does one boy's ambition matter at all?

Do you share my ambition? 
If you don't, then mine doesn't matter.

Where did this ambition come from?
Haha, I laugh now at what I had once thought possible.
But I still won't give up.
I'm just stubborn like that.

Monday, August 10, 2009

Summer of Love II: Completed

ya know, I make music.
and there's pictures from this summer etc
(click the title)

so I'd say this summer has been the best of my summers
today, being the day that I consider to be the last,
well today seemed to be a good day of closure.

I was thinking earlier that I'm ready...
really, ready for anything.
If life gives you lemons, make lemonade, right?

all that exists is the present.
don't regret, don't worry
and work with what you got.

be ready to let go of dissapointment when it comes
be ready to let go pain and discomfort when it comes
and be ready to forget about the wrongs people have comitted against you.

Remember to work for the sake of humanity,
for humanity may work for the sake of you if so

Enjoy yourself even in the worst of times.
If things are bad don't let them get you down,
are you just gonna let your circumstance rule you like that?

who knows what fate and destiny are...
but we all should know to not let fate control us
shouldn't we control our own fate?

anyways, you all enjoy the remainder of you summer.
the future is kind of foggy, but you have a good one!

Friday, August 07, 2009


As my the days of my summer come to an end,
well, what's a rebel to do but rebel?
haha, I just wanna milk my days dry since I have so few.
And so I'm up, refusing sleep to enjoy these last few days.

School for me starts Monday, we're done with summer vacation.
For me, summer is over.

But aside from such facts, I was thinking last night.:::

The way to peace is truth.
The way to truth is love.
The way to love is peace.
Not knowing the truth seems to be the best.
Constantly seeking it, is that the best way to approach it?
Doubt led me to seek the truth.
Truth led me to peace and love.
Peace and love led me to hope.
Hope led me to reality.
My reality led me to my beliefs,
and my beliefs led me to doubt.

::: They may not make much sense,
or maybe you can connect it to real life,
but I think they're right, at least for me.
And one last excerpt from late night thought:::

In order to change the world:

1: the society of love: to live the right way
2: humanity's peace: to solve the world
3: seekers of hope: to birth change

::: Keep in mind that this is all unadulturated stuff.
It's like that other blog I mentioned at the beginning of this year.
Oh, how long ago that was....

Anyways, right now I'm reading:
Self Mastery and Fate with the Cycles of Life

It looks interesting, although I just started it.
I'm not completely sure what it holds, but we'll see, right?

Well, that's it for now...
It's time to read some of your posts.

Oh yeah, and once last thing.
I saw the title and remembered!

In the book it said that we humans are not products of our environment,
but that our environment is humanity's product, our creation.

My belief on the matter of
"who and what control what and who"
 is now a little more experienced.

We gotta draw the line and stop being victims.

Good night
Good morning.
Good day

Saturday, August 01, 2009

Survival of the Gold Promise II

The Gold Promise, no matter how eternal,
how invincible in our eyes.
It is as ephemeral as we.

Our goals must be as weak as our humanity.
A simple human can not dream to accomplish the tasks of God.
But even so, something will be brought, fate will be tested,
humanity will have a good stretch.

We won't challenge what is above,
but everything within our limits will be exhibited.
This sui generis spiel will amount to something.
The world will not experience an arcane understanding.
The world will see our abilities.

These hopes are what keep us alive,
these expectations are what motivate.
Heaven is to be reached for,
but heaven is rest from this weary world.

Are you weary?

are you ready?

Monday, July 27, 2009

Survival of the Gold Promise

Since the creation of the Gold Promise,
there have been many waves.
Waves that have attempted to wash away,
erase the promise that we've written in the sand.

But the Gold Promise isn't made of sand.
It's as indestructible as we are.
it will be followed till death.
[or rather it will follow till death]
Hopefully it'll succeed either to leave a legacy,
or fail to fade away,
and become a legacy itself.

Humanity knows how vulnerable they are.
How big the mountains,
how deep the oceans,
how far the sun
and how close the opportunity of death.

But don't give up,
I alone, can't do this thing.
Even though we're so small,
the universe so big,
we were made for it.
[or rather it was made for us]

Fate can look grim,
but it can't be that bad
for its only the product of imagination.
Fate doesn't exist
...all that exists is what exists now.

So don't give up,
we still got a ways to go...
And that ways to go,
it can only be accomplished in the now.

Don't give up,
For the Sake of Humanity
and for the achievement of the Gold Promise.
Remember the present
and these rewards of life,
and this universe,
and these dreams...

Saturday, July 25, 2009

Thought Viruses

I picked this book up from the library a while ago.
I'll have some past due charges to pay when I return it.
It was good though, I think it'll help me in my journey.
My subconcious has the knowledge now,
hopefully it'll be used to the fullest extent.

The bottom line lies in your thinking.
How coherent are your thoughts?

you know its a shame to be your own demise

Thursday, July 23, 2009


This is what I've been preoccupied with.
But I finally caught up with the rest of the world regarding this manga.
Can you believe they're gonna make me wait until next September for the next chapter?
Anyways, its been one heck of a reading.
One thing that I like especially about manga and anime is that sometimes you'll  stumble upon some deep epiphany or realization. I also watched the Watchmen yesterday.
Things as so get you thinking.
You gotta love it...thinking.
So as for Berserk, I don't recommend it for young children, or for the weak in stomach, or for those that haven't already been exposed to humanity's greatest horrors and lusts.
Or rather I do recommend it...but only for those that are ready.
It can get pretty rough.
As for blogging, and the Philosopher King...
well, I'll be getting back to my duties now.
I've forgotten that they can have much delight in store.

Saturday, July 18, 2009

old ambitions, new limitations

there's a lot of things I could have named this post,
but I think that this one fits well.

I've been pretty busy lately,
and when I'm not, I've been hooked on Berserk the manga.

In the car I've been reading Thought Viruses,
finished today but only because I've been in the car so much.

I wish I had some real time.
So sorry, my fellow bloggers.
Perhaps tomorrow I'll come back to my senses and return to blogging,


Saturday, July 11, 2009

Some Life

From July 6th to July 10th I was at something my church calls Kids Kamp.
Last year I didn't know what to expect, but it was a great escape from a troubled mind.
This year though it was no escape, what it was, was a wonderful experience.
The picture above is simply a small sample of what really went on.
The week was very touching
I was a co-counselor.
Counselor Benji Pacheco:
My children were 3rd and 4th graders.
They were wonderful.
Really got me with all their innocence.
It was great keeping them alive.
I love that kind of responsibility.
Here they go:

And on top of having a great time with the kids,

and old love appeared, nearly unexpectantly.
That experience was both good and bad,
but in the end, things always work out.
So today I say "for the sake of the kids",
and "for the sake of my love and the love of others":
We can't give up.
Things can change.
People do grow up,
and others can.
Life is about the maintenance of life.
There's gotta be a balance.
And you gotta know what your doing.
Good luck, cause we all need some of it sometimes.
I wish I could say more, by I truly can't.
This experience, can it be put in words?

Friday, July 03, 2009


Once Upon A Time

I was a bad little boy...

Of course I look innocent...but that's what kept me alive, haha...

Anyways, this post was supposed to be about questions I asked my parents when I was younger, but I couldn't come up with any.

So Shardhana suggested that I simply write about a childhood memory.

That boy, with the short, straight hair, and the extra excess body fat is, sadly admitted, me, and he liked to play with fire.

Well, one day he was looking for things to burn, and knowing that plastic melted very nicely, he decided to light a bag of cans on fire hoping that whoever discovered it would simply find a neat pile of cans. As the story goes on, we find our boy going back into the house thinking he had just done something clever. Not too long after this his mother called him into her room. He sat at the foot of the bed as usual and took what his mom had for him. In this instance, it was an article of mail to be run across the street to the mail box. He left the front porch without fire on his mind but a big red fire truck was all he saw. Everything went casually until the truth was revealed later that evening; his family was in the living room and were talking about the event. Had they already known? To this day I still wonder, but in that living room, a willing confession was admitted.

Don't play with fire my friends,

The truth will set you free,
but what is freedom but another bondage?

but perhaps if you do play with fire...
Do so with the knowledge that it is contagious and the air we breath is flammable.

p.s. my hair curled as I got older...that's genetics for you
p.p.s my intellect also curled, you can thank humanity for that
p.p.p.s and oh week I'm going to Kids Kamp to watch little kids be little kids
It's gonna be good.
p.p.p.p.s. when I thought of writing this post I think I had more envisioned...hopefully I didn't forget to much

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Exhibition: The Organism Earth

Citizen of the World

Everyone of my day.
We are all cells in the organism of Earth.

Why then do we destroy ourselves?

Shouldn't war be fought to prevent disease
rather than to practice malnutrition?

When someone shakes my hand
I give them a firm shake,
look them in the eyes
and give a little smirk.

Maybe it's my deception,
maybe it's my ego,
it was birthed subconsciously,
might I add,

But I'll tell you what.
That shake is unchanging.
Doesn't matter if its the President, or a hobo.

My treatment of people is always the same initially.
The rest just falls into place.

You all are my brothers and sisters.
What's up with all the rivalry?
Where's the kindheartedness that keeps us livin?
What is your duty as a cell sustaining the life of humanity?
Humanity in all its beauty and majesty.
 Its important, because that, Is what I stand for.
What do you stand for?

Sunday, June 28, 2009

Exhibition: The Revolutionary


Going back to what I was saying in Exhibition: Summer of Love
That event changed my life.

Now when someone asks me what I'm gonna do in life.
It depends who it is but to some I say "I'm not sure"
If they're persistent, I say "I wanna help people"

And to others I say
"I'm gonna take over the world"
On a more intimate floor.
I give a quick speech about how this corrupt world is
and how I'm gonna change things.

Who knows whats gonna happen.
But I'll tell you what

These ambitions, these hopes
they come from a mind which has no where else to turn
I've reached a sense of enlightenment.
Why should we allow our world to be plagued with such viruses?
There is no justification.

My idealism is something farther than some people can imagine.
can you imagine what can be accomplished with this idealism as a goal?
Can you imagine what the world would be like with everyone with such hopes and dreams?
My mind is clear.
Clearer than scientology.
Attempting unbias.
Reconstructing tradition.
I will continue with this liberal touch, its advance.
And hopefully you will be enlightened as well,
in your own special way, of course.

Friday, June 26, 2009

Exhibition: How's Your Love Life?


Each day, loves and fears.
Each day, theres someone around me.
Each day my actions and thoughts influence the world around me.

My love life has been an interesting one.
It's lead me to a concept I call ~Freelove
The advice I give you is solid,
and that is Freelove.

To love without fear.
and to fear without love.

Once again, all I can say is that I try.
I don't hold grudges.
I don't pre-judge.
I go day by day with a hope,
a hope to make the best out of it
with whatever I'm dealt.

Live as you wish, but keep this in mind.

We work best with love.
Everything works best with love.
Don't limit yourself in fears.
Never forget or neglect good.

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Exhibition: Humanity's Entropy

Live Right
"You people don't know how to live"
I've said this before. And I mean it in a lot of ways.
So what will be today's example...hmmm
Everywhere around me.
I see it all the time.
Things going wrong.
They abuse each other
This or that crime happens.
They made some mistake
Some corruption has taken place.
Most of us don't know how to live right.
We don't know how to treat each other.
And we don't know how to live ourselves.
But that can be different.
You can live right.
I'm sure I've said enough.
I try each day
to live up to my preaches and spiels.
How much I succeed is debatable.
You just gotta be constantly reminding yourself of the right way.
And you gotta be aware of your actions. It's all in your mind.
You gotta be in control of your life. Are you?
Because I sure am.

Monday, June 22, 2009

Exhibition: Summer of Love

Open Your Eyes
It's August 2008.
My first Summer of Love.

[ok, so I watched an anime called Eureka Seven and they named an event on the show the Summer of Love. Then at the end there was the Second Summer of Love.
Later on after the summer of 2008 I named an album of pictures (on MySpace) 'Summer of Love' as a rip off the show.
Later on I learned about the hippies in the 60's
But I never meant to name an important event in my life after it.
Nevertheless, I might have been there if I was alive in the 60's.
and nevertheless, this summer is still the Second Summer of Love
(which is the name for an event in the U.K.)]

So back to that important event.
It was pivotal of my life's direction.
Well, I can't say much about it...
But I'll tell you what,
my eyes were opened
and my mind was rolling.
I started something called Project Plum.
My philosophical mind was born.

Now I look around.
And I don't take things at face value.

What do things mean?
Where did they come from?
Why did they do that?
What's best?
How does this connect to that?
And what are the consequences?

My eyes are open,
awake and aware.
Are yours?

Saturday, June 20, 2009

Revolution III

The Revolution is within us
we can't force it, not this one
for this one is of the Mind...

to force such revolution would be an invalidation
but to organize the means of incitations,
that might be part of the solution

whether public or private
your part of the revolution
which side will you fight on?
don't give in to the false ego

forget it, forget it
this is not a fight at all
it's a love
it's a turning of loyalty
love who we are meant to be
love what is good
and follow, believe, in something that'll last
something that'll invest in the beauty of this world

don't give in the vices of human nature
change, just change
I need you, the world needs you
and when it comes,
for the sake of humanity,
you will be part of the Revolution
the Revolution of the Mind
For the Sake of Humanity

You are a citizen of the world.
You advance as a human being.
You live right, and your eyes are open
you're aware and awake
and your ready to change the world.

The leaders of this world today.
Whether conspiring against us or not,
aren't doing a good job.

The government plays a big roll in our live.
We're all fixed to a big machine.
Even I am.
But to which extent are you involved?
to what means do service this beast?

I'll take reformation
I'll take salvation for the neglected
I'll take the right way


It is said that the winter equinox of December 2012 marks an age of peace.
It is said that we are entering into the age of Aquarius.
The Mayans, and prophets, the conspiracy theorists, and the scientologists 
all see this day as something to look forward to.
Some say its a time of destruction. Fear has gripped many.
But I'll tell you one thing.
If the future comes, I'll be prepared
and regardless of any of what's above and beyond,
I will change the world.
That is my vow to you today
That I will try my best.]

Thursday, June 18, 2009

Citizen of the World

we are humanity
you and I
there's a connection between us
do you feel it?
take your rights back
but don't forget the consequences
be self-reliant
but connect with others
we're all in the same boat
us humans and we shouldn't forget
all of us make up this world.

We are all one people.
Race know's no color 
and we are the human race.

The feminine population,
as well as the feminine side of the brain 
should not be oppressed.
We should have sympathy and empathy for each other always
Love should be a way to do things.
We shouldn't harm each other
for we harm ourselves in such actions.
We should, we should, we should
and it can happen
Do it for the sake of humanity.
be civil, as a citizen of the world


Tuesday, June 16, 2009


living in fear causes a constant state of protection
and when one is protecting themselves,
they aren't growing and if you're not growing,
you're dying.

We are an evolving people.
We should be adaptable not just in body, but also in mind.
Having a critical thinking mind
rather than always protecting yourself in conservatism
will lead to a better you.
to a better humanity.

Things gotta change.
open your eyes and live right.
Don't let emotions discontinue your growth as a human being.
Be willing to throw out some of your beliefs
and take up new ones
but always remember you're doing so
for the sake of humanity
and not your own selfish desire

so that you can grow
and you can become wise
and you can discover truth


Sunday, June 14, 2009


Love and fear.
The only two emotions.
All others are said to be an alteration.

I heard that humanity would do its best in love.
Fear can be limiting is what I heard.

So these two are pretty important, eh?
Emotions are important.
They determine a lot.
Our actions are influenced by emotion.
And our actions determine our destiny.

Love and fear aren't yin and yang.
Each has their purpose in our lives.

And each of them should be within our controls.
When we don't control them right, problems occur.

But on another, yet similar note.
When people control people,
someone is bound to be neglected.
This is true on large and small scales.

We all control each other in some ways.
We each have our own freewill,
but we are also all connected.

We can feed our ego,
out of fear,
or we can love.

So be aware,
you control others,
no matter how big or small
and you should do so,
with love,
For the Sake of Humanity


Friday, June 12, 2009

Live Right

don't give into the false ego
Mankind has built seemingly beautiful things, but we've messed up.
the false ego takes over ;
its blindly opinionated
built on false belief systems.
dependent on luxury and pleasure
belief should be something reserved for something seen with open eyes
and what makes you so worthy of luxury and pleasure?

we don't like admitting that we're wrong
we like to justify our actions
so we can feel better about ourselves

the false ego is a parasite that is willing to protect itself
so be aware and rip it from your soul
the leech of false ego

open your eyes and see it
the false ego is filling that hole inside of you with things unworthy
fill it with purpose and resolve
I'll fill mine with, and for, the sake of humanity

Open your eyes, can't you see that the false ego relies on:

blind submission and deception
instead of the truth

fear and over-protection
instead of love and growth

instead of unity

complacency instead of what is right

The true self, being right
It's a humility in living
being able to admit being wrong
putting aside ego to love freely
prioritizing the importance of relationships
growing as a human being
having a critical mind
and doing what's right
instead of buying into complacency


Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Open Your Eyes

We should always have a critical thinking mind.
We can't always buy into everything.
It might be fact that people aren't always saying the truth.

If we follow anything that seems appealing,
can't you see?
we'll give our freedoms to things we don't want.

We also should be careful with what we want.
Where are those desires birthed from?

Is this too much for you?
If it is, you have to open your eyes.

This world, no matter how you see it...
well, it has some problems.
And those problems won't solve themselves.
Those problems can catch up with us

And we won't solve ourselves,
if we always solve the problems of the selfish.

Don't serve those seeking power
Don't serve those seeking possession
Don't serve those who do it wrong
not those who live the false ego

but serve those,
serve those who love
those who do good,
serve those for the sake of humanity
and serve the sake of humanity.

Open your eyes
what is gonna make you happy?
is it gonna be things that lead to hell
or is it gonna be things that result in heaven
(life, and true liberty, and love)

You are a human being,
you're no creation constructed by another's will,
for you have your own will
be able to see the intentions of those around you
and especially those of yourself
live your own life

who are you?
you should know
and if you don't///
open your eyes,
what do you want to be?
trust me,
you want to be (a) you

not a consumer
not a robot
and not a casualty

especially not
someone against humanity

[ps. I could say more about the false natures of humanity that destroy our virtues, but, I have faith that you'll see 'em yourself]

Friday, June 05, 2009

What am I smiling about?

I have no clue...hahaha

Well, its been awhile since I've posted something a little more personal.
I guess its just because I hold my blog to the reverence of its name.

So within this week I've watched Kymatica and Esoteric Agenda both by Ben Stuart.
Great films...I could do a little less with E.A.'s conspiracy theories, but it was good nonetheless.
Today was the last day of school...
Fate's had its way with me again.

Nothing much more to say.
I suppose next I should talk about what I've encountered in these videos.
Perhaps I'll watch them again before I elaborate...
I just don't know.

Wednesday, June 03, 2009


Finally, we conclude the Church State and Self series.

You are your self, what rules you is state (you decide), and church is your generosity.

The aspect of church is reaching out in life. It's living freely. You don't just decide how your life is going to be, the aspect of church is how you live it out.

I am not referring to any religion, or any philosophy other than my own.
The aspect of church in my life is the people around me.
They are my life.

My church is maintaining this organism called earth, not by tradition or belief, but by what I know to be true and that which is good;
everything but death

I will fulfill the aspect of self when I fulfill the aspect of church.
I've turned away from the bureaucracies of state, by they are still important.

I hope you all know what to make of this life.
And that hope is part of my church also.

My church is the Philosopher King.

"Good day to be alive sir,
good day to be alive"

Thursday, May 28, 2009

Intermission: True Self

We are divine.
Don't give in to the false ego.
We resonate with the frequencies around us.
Its the self that is the greatest threat to humanity.
You gotta be aware, you gotta be aware.
What we hate in others, is what we hate in ourselves.
Our abuse stems from such hate.
A subconscience release, passing of blame.
Find out your life, yourself.
Humanity as a collective is one organism.
Let us put away false ego
the bureaucracies that destroy, 
then maybe something will get done.
Maybe a revolution of the mind will occur.
Maybe trusting in a falliable system was a bad idea.
Maybe being deceived by external influences
and even ourselves was a bad thing, wrong.
Maybe we can become one with our divinity.
Maybe the mistakes of our past can be recalled,
trashed and off the shelves and out of our homes,
of true life
of true liberty
of true love
and of truth itself
will be my constitution
my existence
my humanity
my evolution
my kingdom,
for our sake

Tuesday, May 26, 2009


[So far] I've concluded that there are three categories to this life.
Church, State, and Self.

One aspect to life is the aspect of state.
This encompasses the requirements of life deemed by others.

Unlike self,  there are many different ways to live out the state aspect of life.

It depends on what those around you expect out of you.
The government expects you to go to school, to work,
and to indulge in all other facets of American life.
Your family may expect you to carry on the family line.
Your spouse may expect you to be the ideal partner.

You also determine what the aspect of state means to you.
What do you believe to be required of you in life?
Actually, that's the main point.

The facet of state, regarding life, is what you try to fulfill because you believe its required.
Of course, its important because it shows who you{r self is} really are.
And even more so, the aspect of church does with possible extravagance.

Thursday, May 21, 2009

Intermission: Liberty

We all hold the opportunity of liberty
In our hands is the choice of life and death.
A famous person whose name I forget said, 
"Give me liberty, or give me death"

Death is an ugly liberty, but a liberty nontheless

Any of us can free ourselves with the right technique.
Any of us can free each other with the right method.

Liberty is a beautiful thing,
but what will be sacrificed[?],
In our pursuit of happiness?

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Self II

So who then must we be?

Individuality is beautiful.
Love is just the same.
There are many virtues in this life that we should live up to.

But specifically if we must change in order to change this world then
we must be above the system, critical thinkers and the like.

We should not abnegate, but serve our fellow humans by who we are.
We must be able to try to understand and exhibit self control.
Our curiosities should be curiosities of good and
we must be people of purpose and resolve,
for the sake of humanity.

Thursday, May 14, 2009


[So far] I've concluded that there are three categories to this life.
Church, State, and Self.

One aspect to life is the aspect of self.
This encompasses the necessities of physical life,
as well as the thoughts that the brain processes.

This aspect is important because of its affects on Church and State.
Who you are determines your life [you experience] in this world

If anything in this world is gonna change, it must be done...
[not through the bureaucracies of state or the liberties of church, but]
...through a change in the aspect of self. We must change///

Saturday, May 09, 2009


Doubt is not something uncommon to any of us.
But to all of us, a lack of hope can be devastating.

Recently I've thought about us human beings.

I'm probably in over my head...
but my they destroy human nature?

Is it human nature to kill and destroy?
To hoard and starve?
To be ruled and to rule with corruption?

I was sitting in my school cafeteria with a type of detention stamped on my forehead. A group of three school officials were conversing, two men and a woman. Their conversation wasn't too bad...but it soon died down and a too familiar awkward silence penetrated the large, almost empty room. The woman was the first to break such holdup, and after her statement she smiled...not at what she had said, but that she had broken the silence itself.

I don't believe that the Gold Promise would destroy human nature.
I want to liberate the people, my goal is not to create some kind of totalitarianism, but to bring people to life without destruction, starvation, and corruption.

Our humanities will always exist imprinted in the cosmos of the future and foreshadowed in heavens of ancient.

Thursday, April 30, 2009

Gold Promise: Official Statement

I want to liberate the people

Corrupt leaders, the burden of economics, and the other ignorances and immoralites of the people are humanity's greatest vices.

In acquiescence and evil-doing, those who are knowledgeable lie.
These are sins in themselves, bowing down to the gods of this current system

In foolishness and innocence, those who are unknowledgeable wait.
Their faults limit the quality of their life. Purpose and resolve have seeped down to encompass trivialities.

In peace, everything for the sake of humanity as a whole, we should live.

I want to bring people to life

I want to live as well...

Why must we be ruled by killing 'virtues'?
It's time people...its time to prepare for the preparations...
well, at least for me

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

over you, hopefully not

so, I'll say this, 
look at human existence

without human existence, we have nothing...
so existence brings good and bad, right?

well then is nonexistence better because it doesn't bring bad (or evil)?
I don't believe so; existence as an opportunity to good is the only good aspect to this universe

So ultimately, the opportunity for good is most important

So then, on a smaller scale, what is good?

Well, if human existence is the opportunity of good, then anything that contributes to this opportunity is good as well

And this is where the world fails

People, in bondage by corrupt leaders, poverty, war, crime and other things that hinder human advancement are the things that take a stance against human existence (and the opportunity of good) and thus are deemed "evil" at least by my opinion and by the idea that human existence is good

So, I guess to sum it up...

Good is for the sake of humanity.
Evil is against.

Monday, April 20, 2009


"the angels are corrut with power, the heavens are upside down
where does the justice lie?

these ephemeral circumstances sting so much, as if pain and pleasure were everything,
this is the human curse"

Monday, April 13, 2009


"And I'm only here
To bring you free love
Let's make it clear
That this is free love
No hidden catch
No strings attached
Just free love" (Depeche Mode)
I've made many mistakes in the past...
And the reason for this is my lack of love and wisdom.
Wisdom won't always be with me,
but love I can always muster...
Freelove is the best kind.
Consider a text message I've recently sent.
"No... love, but with no strings attached.
No expectations, no fears and no worries...
just friendships and life. 
Conquering another day and another problem in harmony,
with another person without hierchy and emotions that destroy..."
It's a way to life...
A way that we can't all acheive.
A way of life I can't even fully comprehend.
Where should the love begin and where should it end?
Life is a puzzle...get the balance right.
You want a solution?
I give you love and wisdom to reach for.
You want a life?
I'll give you a mess, clean it up and get what you want.
You want some love?
Just come to me and take, take, take.
Ask me to give and I'll horde.
Is this wrong?
In the end, I love you all my fellow readers. Each your own person,
each your own thoughts,
life may suck or be great,
just never give up because my love for you
is directly attached to this logical mind
And thats how it shoud be
Think I'm weird, become indifferent,
just realize that our love should know no bounds.
Love is right.
My ways should change.
I should love more.
We should love more.
And I truly am sorry..
From Benji Pacheco to my readers,
for the sake of humanity...
From Rafe to the world,
for the sake of what is good...

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